In the creative world, there are so many auditions and considerations that I usually just call the journey: Collecting Rejection.
I actually quite like it! I have a realistic projection in my mind of how and when my work might land (and if it doesn't, I'm happy to go at it anyhow). That being said - both submitting work and receiving rejection have become super easy to track with Submittable - I'm late to the party and I'm sure it's a commonplace resource, but when you're working and like something - there needs to be a shout out! It lets me submit all my screen, stage, and prose work.
On the writing front, I heard a great lesson on character arcs. It unpacked how the protagonist's arc is dependent on a truth or a lie they believe at the beginning. That truth is tested, and they come out the other end knowing better or not - pretty straightforward. I've been focusing on the hero's journey with wants and needs, I completely forgot to explore beliefs.
How it helped me was to identify the kind of loss a character experiences after meeting their Goddess. I've done a sweep of all my content and re-examined how much I could make them lose, both materialistically, and in faith by the time they confront their Gods.
I've a couple theatre auditions this week and it's the first time I feel out of my element with something I'm passionate about. I'm trying to connect to the text and just need more time than I used to.
To connect to the emotional range of the text, I play a game I call Whisper Fight. It's when I internalize the text, and sense of the argument, and perform it like I don't want anyone in the room to hear my conversation - it's very private, and needs to be very specific. Then I scale it up a notch, higher and bigger in intensity and volume until after an hour, the quiet seed of a whispered monologue blossoms into a full volume and honest speech with passion.
That's not to say my end result will be one big loud performance, it just means that in the moment I discover size, naturally, it will be filled and honest; something familiar.
I'm filling out my DBT workbook again - it really is a useful tool for anyone with a brain and a heart, I highly recommend it. Everyone has to work on themselves, and the book helps you focus on how. You practically write the first half yourself, which makes sense since you're doing all the work on yourself anyhow!
I'm at a point where I'm listing the things that make me happy, or bring me back to baseline. Sometimes when I feel manic, or overwhelmed, I resort to finding three things of the same colour around me; then I spell and define the objects, then I think of other words to describe them, then I feel better.
People ignore the simple things because they're simple - simple doesn't mean ineffective!
To close out, I've learned a new song to play on guitar when I wind down! A nice diddy: