Remember Who You Are
19/05/19 23:11 Filed in: Personal
The best advice I had this year was about hunkering down and finishing things. I've too often been a third act hero - I would always set my stories up, and then move on to another instead of finishing. I know a lot of artists who are the same.
I wrapped up my plays (except one), discovered the fourth act to my movie scripts, and even had the time to add two new pieces (spec scripts for existing properties). Now, I'm nearing the final chapters of my first novel, and I'm writing a script for a quality dramatic film I can actually film myself.
I'm auditioning, exercising, and trying to be the best version of myself. In order to be the best version of yourself, you need to know/remember who you are - but that's work also.
I eat next to no carbs on a 5:2 weekly fasting ratio; and three times a day, I work out with the following easy "at home" regimes that you can do when you roll out of your bed. I do 100 of each:
Standard Pushups and sit ups; Spiderman Pushups, Lower Ab leg raises
Coupled with long walks every day, the whole affair has proven to be helpful in combatting weight gain caused by the kind of meds I'm on. All I read about is how much weight gain people experience on such meds, and have been lucky to preemptively get in front of it!
Being able to edit a finished product feels SO much better than struggling to settle down and finish it. I'm now trying to finish the last few chapters of my novel, and I'm retooling a screenplay I think I'll try to produce next year.
Finishing is important, but even more so is starting things that actually speak to you. If you can't finish things, that's a problem; and if you try hard to finish things, and obsess on it, you may be hitting a wall having started something you never should have. If you're not a carpenter - maybe that wooden chair isn't going to ever be finished (or if it does get finished, you won't enjoy it).
I know people who are comedians that don't tell jokes, and DP's who never want to get out and shoot their own work for instance; or people who try to be authors and artists but never stick with it more than six months - they wind up hating their books and slowing down their art, and then jumping to a new fad, and I just don't want to fall into that trap.
I try to remember who I am and what I love. Art isn't something you do because you want to, it's because you have to. Finishing work helps to remind me, and it's been a good couple months of remembering. It feeds my soul :)
The documentary is moving along! I've made contact with two MPP's and I'm a little closer to climbing the ladder. Our thesis has become "Is the pen mightier than the sword" - we want to examine the efficacy of our democracy.
We want to establish a call to action for Canadian Education - then follow it up the ladder and see where the voices travel to. The higher we go up the ladder, the better. If nothing comes from the attempts - we examine why. Either way, it's going to be interesting and educational.
Idealistically - I hope Canadians effect change. Realistically - I worry a change won't be heard and considered, and want to know why.
Canadian education is in a scary state where we are going to force a dynamic of the haves and have-nots. I'm tired of feeling like we're all cogs in a machine we can't control. And if we can't control it? Let's deconstruct why and whether that can change.